Just finished eating lunch at the cafe where I work. Today's Blue Plate Special was a breaded boneless chicken breast, green beans, a roll, and mashed potatoes with gravy. Oh and I had a sweet tea. It was yummy for a bit. Yeah, I actually thought (as I was eating until my plate was almost clean) that "at least I am eating green beans", but really, that meal was not the healthiest. Not the worst, but I am sure as all restaurants do, that the serving sizes were larger and the salt content was higher than recommended. Well, and don't even talk to me about my sweet tea. I just can't seem to drink water with a meal. It just doesn't seem to cleanse my pallet as well after the food.
I think that I am actually "thinking" more about my food. Not doing much about it, ya know, like making wiser choices, but I'm thinking about how and what I am eating and how I feel after I eat it. Like right now, about 10 minutes after eating lunch, I can tell you that I feel full up into my throat, like if I burped I'd be afraid I might throw up in my mouth a little. Oh, that paints a pretty picture for you! Anyway, I can also predict that I might feel really really sleepy in the next half hour. Not sure about it, but I know there are days that within an hour of lunch I'm ready for a nap.
On a side note, I was walking in to work yesterday and passed a woman coming the opposite way in the hall by my office. She was so out of breath, panting even, and she was on her way out of the air conditioned building into the heat. She was overweight, but an employee here at this hospital, obviously getting off work from the midnight shift which I am sure doesn't help her eating and sleeping habits/schedules. My thought was, "damn...I just walked in from the parking lot down the block in over 80 degree morning temp and I'm out of breath and have a little sweat on my upper lip and need to go straight in my office and get a cold bottled water, sit down, and turn my fan directly on me"....then my thought was, "If I don't straighten my ass out, I could be that lady in the next few years". I mean, honestly, I was on the Beachbody website the other night, just browsing around, trying to get motivated looking at "success stories" and I decided I should update my profile info. I had first registered on there in 2009 I think, and at that time I listed my weight as 205....now, two years later, I am at 250 lbs. WTF?!?!!? Dumb ass, lard ass, disgusting depressed fat ass!
Oh, and as I was leaving my internship late yesterday, my supervisor there was sending me out with a gallon of sweet tea and a huge Ziploc bag of assorted homemade cookies that they had left over from their company awards luncheon earlier that day. Should I have refused? Yes. Did I? No. When I got home I had one large cup of sweet tea with my dinner of Schwan's Chicken Lo Mien and had a couple half broken cookies that really weren't that good. Then I went and layed down in bed to watch TV. Yep, I am a pathetic lazy slug! This is your life fat girl! You used to be thin with hourglass curves and now you are just curve upon curve of rolls. What was that old thing about "can you pinch an inch?" Hell yeah I can pinch an inch! I weigh 100 lbs more than I did 10 years ago. I can pinch quite a few inches!
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